31 March 2020
Only you
Only you, could see that I was hurting
Only you, ever cared to understand
Always know, that I'd do do the same
I'd do anything for you, my friend
It's true
如释重负地把辞职信递出去的那天,
我在下班后给你打电话。
你愉悦的声音一如既往:Hello, how was your day?
我说:Hey, I have something to share with you.
你说:Yeah, did you tender your resignation letter?
H,你总可以在我还未说话之前,明白我想些什么,或我做了什么。
而你很少猜错。
这些年,跟你诉说了很多工作上的不如意,
我所有的不满、愤恨,更多的是对自己的哀伤。
而你一直都聆听着。
你总说,在工作上的接触,根本看不出来我有这样的压力或情绪。
我隐藏得太好。
那日,在南北大道往我老家奔驰的280公里路,
你听完我终结这6年的感受,
多年前,你曾说过不解我为何总是选择离开,
当时,我觉得你的语气带着责备。
你提的问题在我脑海里一直盘旋,因我也问着自己同样问题许多年,
如今我为自己找到了解释。
我也为自己决定了接下来的路,因为我十分清楚,
自己得做些什么来改变现状。
那晚的倾述来到最后,
我说:I do not need to tell anybody but I know you care, so I tell you why.
你无法言语。
许久之后你说:I'm glad you tell, you need to release yourself.
我庆幸你明白,你care因而愿意试着理解。
我十分感恩有友如你。
H, only you can be a friend that completely understands and always stand by for me, without explanation, you already know. Is my blessing, I cherish the moment we spend together, even just a little conversation.